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I find myself looking for any bad thing to make everything wrong. It's my fault and I know nothing good will ever come from this.
CHORUS: 'Cause when you aim low, you'll never see failure. When you aim high, then you might die trying.
The many things that I've endured have only made me stronger. But I can never see the positive. My mind moves towards the negative.
That's just the way that my mind works and I'm tired of not trying. What am I so afraid of? Why do I never try?
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Masquerade
03:10
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In the beginning everything was so perfect, but as time moved on I've begun to learn.
CHORUS: That everything you are is nothing but a lie. A facade. A masquerade. Put on your face.
My time with you was like walking through a minefield. Every step I took was one step towards our demise. And everything I thought I knew of you was oh so far from the truth.
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A Fucked Up Feeling
03:42
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Like a hammer to face. Tell me how does it taste to you. The feeling of rejection. This feeling of hate. 'Cause I know this now.
I feel like I'm gone. I feel misplaced. Do you know what I mean? Can you hear what I'm saying?
CHORUS: 'Cause sometimes it feels like I'm dying inside. Sometimes it feels like there's nothing inside.
Yeah I got a feeling and it won't go away. These feelings of rejection and these feelings of hate. Now you know this is me.
Don't try to judge or manipulate, but this feeling of rejection it drives me to hate.
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My Hate
02:28
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Oh yes it happened again, betrayed by the ones I loved. Fair-weather friendships just tear me up. And all my life it's been a thorn stuck in my skin. I close my eyes but the shit seeps in. And I can't seem to find me one good friend. I don't think that I even need a friend.
CHORUS: 'Cause I hate you all.
It makes me wonder how much easier life could be if I were to sever every tie. And for what it's worth I deny that bullshit word, 'cause some friendships just equal shit.
Old friends now enemies, you don't mean shit to me. All my exes including Steph, Dolly, Jane. Every fuck from my school and every fuck that thinks they're cool, fuck you all I hope you die.
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I Am Me
02:22
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I never said I was a decent human being and I don't care about what they think. I never want to be the special one. I am the hated one.
CHORUS: You try to make me just like them. But I can't be and I won't be. 'Cause I am me, that's who I am. I am me.
I never want to touch the hand of your god. I'm not immaculate, I am flawed. I never want to be the special one. I am the hated one.
Now just 'cause you know them, doesn't mean I want to. And just 'cause you love them, doesn't mean I will.
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The Book of Jack
02:31
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You put your faith in a book that was written by a man and yet you say it's the word of god. Like a drug your faith's a crutch. Religion can't explain much and your god is also man made.
CHORUS: Don't call me sinner, I'm only a sinner to you. How can I go to hell? I thought I was already there.
Spread fear to the simple-minds. Too bad you can't fool mine. Theological propaganda is nothing but lies. I won't follow this how you blindly follow this. I'm not broken, don't fix. Just worship your lie.
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I Lost A War
03:05
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By the time I realized I kicked my ass one more time. I fought myself and lost a war. The countless ways I amaze myself seems to be a brand new way that I fuck myself. Can you believe that I am still breathing?
CHORUS: I lost a war to myself. I lost it all and I'm still here. I blame everything on me. I lost a war and I'm still here.
I can't believe that it is me, I am my enemy. I always thought of this before. My stupid brain is my murrain or so it seems to be. I'm trying to kill me.
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Ms. Make Believe
04:56
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I'm in love with a girl who doesn't exist. She exists, but only in my head. And I regret ever thinking of her face. And her traits are taken from the ones I once loved. Those memories have come and gone.Now I'm stuck here with the image of the one that I love and I'm all by myself. I'm all alone. And she's stuck inside my mind.
CHORUS: Just let my heart explode. Please just leave me alone. I don't think that I can take it.
Times like this they make me wonder why I even thought of the kind of girl that I want when I can't even find a girl at all. Or one that will ever want me at all. Now I'm stuck here with the image of the one that I love and I'm all by myself. I'm all alone. And she's stuck inside my mind.
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I Killed David
03:27
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CHORUS: Well if you're looking for David, David ain't here. You'll find him in the gutter slashed from ear to ear. Yes I did it and I don't care. I'm telling you Dave ain't here.
He looked at me weird and I had to do it. He had the sneer of an OG Gansta. I took that look right off his face, now he's gone without a trace.
PRE CHORUS: I put the razor to his neck. Left to right, now the fucker's dead. 2 more times to make sure I did it right. Now there's no more David.
I dug a whole a couple feet deep but the whole wasn't deep enough. I got tired and left him there. If the po po finds him I don't care.
Dave is dead, I killed him yesterday. Dave is dead, I killed him today. Dave is dead, I kill him everyday in my head.
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Late night, I'm alone again. I'm here listening to branches scrape my windows, my lullaby for the night. The only light I see is from a candle flickering. Dim images are dancing in my head.
CHORUS: This is killing me 'cause I cut all my ties and my bridges have been burned down. My bridges have been burnt out. My wrist has been sliced by you. Cold stares are razor blades. Homicidal serenade.
Retrace the fights once again. Repeat the words that you said. I beat myself up because of you. When all is said and done, the damage has all come from you.
Na nana na nana na. Hey hey.
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Loving Her Was Wrong
04:17
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Never love a girl who's in love with herself 'cause she'll never love you. She'll only drag you along. So selfish and heartless. A bitch none-the-less. Her world involves only her.
CHORUS: I remember the days I stayed up late just so I could hear her voice. She held my heart for so long and now I know I was wrong loving her.
Everything that I felt before is gone. I feel no more. Everything has been replaced, from her face to her taste. I learned this the hard way.
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sad and angry music for sad and angry people
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